During a conversation with Rolling Stone, Evanescence singer Amy Lee looked back on the band's massive success with the 2003 debut album "Fallen," recalling some of the turmoil from that time.
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When the interviewer said, "I remember you had your own bus and the rest of your band had another bus. Maybe the things were split up in different ways. You mentioned there was some tension within the band and you had some stuff going on in the background of your life, and this is the beginning of this thing. How did you know that this was the life for you? With all the negativity and stuff like that, how did you know that this was what you wanted to do?", Amy replied (transcribed by UG):
On one hand, you don't know that. You kind of just have to live moment to moment, and make the decisions that are right for your heart and your life. So at that moment, I didn't know what I was going to be doing the next year, or the year after that. I was just grateful for the good parts about what we had, and doing my best to fight the obstacles. I still feel like that.
I definitely feel differently now in terms of my relationship with my career. I know that I'm where I'm supposed to be. And it's a wonderful thing to feel, rather than just, 'I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm having fun and people seem to like it, so this will last a while'. There's a different feeling that you've been doing for 18 years and it's like this is a good thing in my life, I can look at my life and see all the joy that has brought me and brought others.
It's been such a life-giving thing this, I have had to fight for it against a lot of different entities across the span of time. But it has all been worth it to be here in this moment and to be with my band, who I really, truly love, making music that I feel is such a true and real representation of who we are.
It's bigger than myself, I couldn't do it by myself. I love it so much, I'm so grateful for all of it. And our fans - we have millions of fans all around the world who have stuck with us, and cared, and just supported us in such a beautiful way. It really feels like just a world. There is a whole world, a whole community of stuff that is a product of all of that. And I have not at every moment in my life loved it and wanted to rush back to it. There have been plenty of times where I wanted to run away and wondered if we were ever going to do anything again. But coming where we are now, where we have gotten to, and the whole full circle vibe of it all, I really want to make use of time right now. I don't want to waste a minute.
I am so grateful and just really looking forward to going back on tour, and feeling that feeling, that incredible thing that is like nothing else - to stand on stage and be completely immersed in the music with a whole bunch of people that you don't even know in the crowd. Just souls experiencing something that is deeper than the language all together at the same time.
The song of yours from that era that I remember at the concert is 'My Immortal' - that really took from classical and the metal side. But you also did a version of it that was strictly the piano...
Yeah. And playing live music is always an awesome opportunity to show different sides of the song. The fact that we've played live so much with our evolved band from that time is so cool. And part of what's made me continue to love 'Fallen' is because through life we can change anything, we can upgrade as we go. And we've had so many years with that song. There are just parts that they're fluid.
It's like, 'You know what? This part always sounded to me like it's rushed. Why don't we extend this whole moment and make it really happy?' So it's kind of like the song has a life of its own and it's always still growing. To be able to look at it like that just is wonderful because it can grow with you.
What is it that attracts you to darker or heavier, more challenging music in general?
I don't know. I always have. There are things that all of us have just specific tastes that our ears gravitate towards. I love to listen to my music loud, I like it fil my ear. And my son, Jack, when he was five - back when we were going out to museums and stuff, we went to a science museum, he's super into science.
"And there was this room that was all about audio, and they showed something that was so interesting to me, it just clicked in my head, I'm like, 'That's what I like.' There was a spiral, it has to do with the shape of the inside of your ear, and where sound goes, and what different frequencies go to different places.
"So it shows this spiral, and when you hit a pitch, it goes, 'Weee.' And when you hit only a little of the spiral, it's like a mid-sound that goes further, and it's filling the spiral. And that's what I want, I want my ears full of the vibration of sound. I want to feel it doing in my ears and filling me."
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