Post by FallenEvArmy on Feb 5, 2017 17:19:28 GMT -6
Did Amy ever express or discuss what this song was about? I've always assumed it was about a single person, but one day, I started listening to it from a different perspective and it totally blew my mind how spot on it was. To me, I feel like this song is about working with Wind-Up and how over the years they've suppressed their creativity and forced them into a direction the band didn't want to go.
Thought that I was strong
I know the words I need to say
Frozen in my place
I let the moment slip away
Remember all the times Amy said she tried to speak up for herself and fight for her music, only to have WU knock her down.
I've been screaming on the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me?
Aaa aaa aaa [repeats]
Amy always said that she loved the wordless part because it's like an outcry, you can hear the sheer frustration in this part.
Say it's over,
Yes it's over
But I need you anyway
Say you love me but it's not enough
To me this sounds like she wants to be rid of them but feels she can't leave because it's a necessary relationship, and maybe feels a bit dependant on them to help release the music. WU probably said they cared about the band but their actions clearly said otherwise.
Never meant to lie
But I'm not the girl you think you know
The more that I am with you
The more that I am all alone
As we've all seen, and as Amy has said herself, she's changed, she's not the same person she was in the beginning. But WU probably didn't see that. I'm guessing the more they worked together, the harder it was and more isolating it became. It must be difficult to make music when you're own record label doesn't believe in you.
Not that I'm so different
Not that I don't see
The dying light of what we used to be
But how could I forgive you?
And I'm a liar by your side
I'm about to lose my mind
You've been dreaming
If you're thinking
That I still belong to you
And I've been dying,
Because I'm lying to myself!
She probably felt that by WU suppressing her creativity, that they were killing the band. And because she had no choice but to work with them, she had to go against some things that she believed. So all the while she had to answer to them, she probably felt that she wasn't being true to herself.
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